fuck you mom.

feeling sad and lonely. i have to remember, this too shall pass.

i'm so sick of people shouting in my neighborhood. it happens all the time. doesn't matter what time of day or day of the week. i can't wait to move out of the ghetto.

there is hope for me moving to san francisco after all. i just did a search on CL and found several 2 bedroom apartments in my price range. yay!

5 more days and then the verbally abusive roommate is gone. she may even be gone by monday too. it's been a difficult 1.5 mos. for the whole time- i've been hiding in my bedroom, avoiding her. whenever i talk to her now, i get nervous and get butterflies. once my new roommate comes, i'll have to re-train myself from hiding because i trust my new roommate. when i first met my current roommate, i didn't get a good vibe from her (her energy seemed to suck up the whole living room when she walked in) however i was desperate for a roommate. i will never do this again. i can handle 5 more days with her here. making noise. being inconsiderate. giving this place bad vibes. i know i can do it. i've been in difficult situations before and i've dealt with it. i can deal with this.

i can't wait until april 1. it's been so uncomfortable with my roommate this past 1.5 mos. it seems like it's taken forever to get to april 1. after april 1, i wouldn't have to hide in my room like this hermit. i'll be set free! yay!

i'm meeting with this girl i've held a torch for, for like 3 years, next week for tea. eek! i wish i wasn't so fat these days. of course i have to be fat when the love of my life is willing to see me again! ugh. sigh.

FRIENDS ONLY!

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